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To Hide Within Silence
{WINNER OF A FIRST PRIZE}

If one could hide within silence
What a tale it would tell
Of darkened shadows and faceless men
Of outstretched hands and soundless voices
Of a light that can not be reached
Because a heart hath been forsaken by time

If one could dream within silence
What a world it would be
An echo of music amongst thy breeze
A whisper of time within thy drops of rain
A world of hope and love
Un-forsaken by fear and doubt of time

If one could hear silence
What a joyous noise it would be
For hidden in its shadows are those words unspoken
For within its coils are bonds left unbroken
For time hath not forsaken its very essence
Because its voice hath not yet been heard

If one knew thy soul of silence
What ageless memories it would share
Of times when love was treasured and fought for
Of Lords and Ladies whom would die for each other
Of endless hope and priceless faith
For its own soul bound to another’s by its own will

If one could speak within silence
What beautiful words would be heard
For one would know they art feared but missed
For one would know they art felt on thy wind
For one would know that through thy silence of time
He is still heard, still felt, still loved beyond thy realm of silence that he graces with time

If one could forgive silence
What a couragable faith he would show
To know that once of his kind can take away thy pain
To know that someone needs to forget
To know that thy light un-reached "Fades To Black"
For without his silence his shadows fade and time is lost

If one could remember silence
What memories would remain
They would know thy depth of its pain
They would see thy tears cried in vain
They would feel thy dying of its heart
They would forgive and let be forgotten to love again

To Hide Within Silence. Copyright © 2008 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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Just A Toy!

Blinded by his lust for words, she read his riddles, never once reading between the lines. He kept her intrigued and inspired by his presence as a shadow amongst her dreams. He stirred her inner soul and allowed her to believe what was said to be true. He played with her emotions and her heart as if it were a toy to be tossed around. He secretly laughed at her vulnerability and played with her mind, all because he could. No intentions, just a game.

Love to him isn't even a word. There is no light within darkness, only a beast that preys upon the innocent with cruel intents and ruthless taunts. What she craved from him was truth. His torments of time allowed him to poke fun at what she wanted to become. He sometimes hates what he is; however, he is cunning and swift to enjoy what he is. He is cold, and cares not for whom he hurts. Why should he? Mortals are just fanatics and psychos. Useless toys to have fun with. Who cares if their emotions are taken for granted? They are nothing more but mere vessels to feed upon and a plaything when they are bored and restless.

She tried hard to remember why she called out his name into the wind. She thought for once she mattered to someone. She thought she had hurt him. But with his hidden laughs, he only mocked her. Teased her with dreams of pleasure while his beast had his way with her.

Naive was she to believe. She is hurt by his last words. Not that he has a heart to care with. But she holds her head high. She stood in the wind one last time and called out his name, but said nothing more. His metaphorical light went out. Now knowing that she was nothing as usual but a play thing. She let the last of her tears fall and watched as the light came back on. Walking away she vowed she would never again trust, believe, or have compassion, for words that are what they are. Words. Written on a box of wires that to immortals and mortals alike can get you what you want and destroy you because you believed them.

She only wanted to matter. To believe that her inner being was worth more then the woman portrayed on the outside. For once, she wanted her dreams to be real. She wanted to be seen for what she believed in not what she felt she was. Nothing but a play thing.

Well, his play time was ended last morrow. He enjoyed himself to say the least. Tossed her like a broken toy because he was bored and had nothing better to do. Branding her a stalker that couldn't take a hint.

She played his game well she presumes. Her prize. She became the biggest toy to ever be played with. Who cares if she got hurt in the process? He wanted to play a game and she was a vulnerable pawn who could be toyed with easily and without remorse he played well.

She was just a toy. How amusing.

Just A Toy!. Copyright © 2008 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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HOLLOW
'Tis so cold and dark in thy shadows, as echoes haunt hidden corners and whispers of silence fill thine air. Walking in aimless wander, she hides from all those she knows. 'Twas wrong for her to think she would matter to anyone. Her soul searches for thy same happiness as all others, always promised forever but never seeing it. Reaches even when she knows she will be used for all they can retrieve from her then abandon her without remorse. Her soul cries out to emptiness and becomes a hollow void of endless time. To be loved and not used or lied to, is but a dream. Along thy corridors of her endless walls, she can see each mistake sketched in stone, there to remind her of those who have taken her for granted for her willingness to love and her desire to be loved, but only used her for their desirable pleasures because they could, or she was blind and let them. Her mistakes alone.

Not once hath she ever thought of be coming like them. She only wanted to be loved. To matter to someone who would mean the world to her. Too many centuries hath passed her by, endless eternities of lonely shadows keep her soul at bay. A crimson fluid runs through her vanes keeping a dead heart pumping but never warm. Within time she will fade away as mortals always do wishing to be someone she's not and wanting a world only found in her dreams. Yet her immortal soul will forever feel thy tortures of a lost and abused emotion that a higher power clearly states:

",,,,,,,,,, but thy greatest of these is LOVE."

Her dream; to see that statement proved.
Her reality: never to be seen.

HOLLOW. Copyright © 2008 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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"If I Told Ye……"

If I told ye I was reaching for ye
Would ye reach back?
If I confessed thine tears to ye
Would ye believe in their meaning?
If I had nothing to offer other then thine love
Would ye hear thy truth in mine heart?
If I told ye of dreams
Would ye compare yours to thine?
If I offered no promises yet trusted thy will to make them
Would ye be open to accept them?
If love conquers all
Why have I yet to be loved?
If I cherished nothing more then thy thought of ye
Would ye smile and think of thee as well?
If I suffered thy distance for thee both of us
Would ye believe mine love to be true?
If I never hath thy pleasure to hold ye
Would ye caress thy thought and want thee to?
If time was all we hath
Would ye offer thee one wish?
If that wish was to be loved by ye
Would ye be able to honor it in truth?
If I told ye I loved ye
Would ye forgive thee for thy want to reach for ye?

Now that ye know
That I hath reached for ye,
That I have cried for ye,
That I have dreamt of ye,
That I have loved ye,
If I told ye I was reaching for ye
Would ye reach for thee too?

If I Told Ye. Copyright © 2007 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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What Time Can Not Erase

Time.
In all of its honesty.
Forever waiting for no one, yet always giving us a tomorrow.
It is all we hath when we art apart, and what we share when we art together.
It gives us hope for happiness and thy will to go on, even when our hearts are kept in fear of failure.

It is thy gentle kiss that takes us away from thy sorrows, thy laughter of love that shows us no boundaries, and trust without seeking thy truth first.
It is thy blind love offered from a distance in hopes of calming thy pain in side ye, and thy whispers of faith in thee touch of her hand.
It is thy silence of unspoken words deep within her eyes and thy softness and comfort she offers with her arms.
It is thy calmness of his words at thy sound of his voice and warmth of his arms that allows time to be theirs.

It is all Thee hath to offer.
All ye art able to give.

It will not erase thy pain.
It won’t bring back thy understanding that evil destroys inside us.
It won’t take away thy sorrows.
It won’t erase thy memories of goodbyes.
It won’t bring back what thy world hath taken from us.
It won’t erase thy love I hath for ye or cause thyne heart to judge ye unfairly.
It will not keep thy distance from coming between us nor make thy days of hardships go away.

It will allow our hearts to wander creating memories for new tomorrows.
It will let you know that some where, some how, there is someone who blindly, without doubt, longs to take What Time Can Not Erase and turn ye hope and ye fear of love into something that will allow ye to dream away thy pain, to open ye heart to a stranger and a friend, and to allow thy chains that keep ye from her to crumble thy walls around ye heart.
It will allow ye to love again.
I will wait forever as long as forever will wait for thee.

What Time Can Not Erase. Copyright © 2006 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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A Hint Of Hope

Deep in his eyes, it is there, that hint of something missing
Deep in his heart, surrounded by walls unbreakable
Is thy beating of something longing to be heard
"Here Come Thy Tears" echoes in my memory
He reaches out but doeth not grasp what reaches back.

Within his touch, coldness lingers, keeping distance at bay
Within his arms, longs thy sadness to be over
Deeper still Thy Hint Of Hope is hidden
"Before Thy Dawn" he has taken it all away
Knowing that I Love Him, it’s this I do not lack.

Hidden in his dreams, he feels life has passed him by
Hidden in thine heart, I’m loosing thy will to try
Why he hath sent these words to thee, he did not say
Do you hear thy whispers now, do ye not want thee to stay
It doesn’t always hath to be thee same, all alone, so much love

A Hint Of Hope, sweet as milk, satin as a rose
It is there in his eyes, in his words, in his smile
He wants to be loved, he needs to be loved, somebody doeth
Ye hath found someone who would stay, don’t throw it all away
Have faith in thine words, raise your heart to thy heavens above

Take thee now, take thine love, I’ll keep ye safe from harm
Take thy dreams and make them real, smile and hold them near
I’ve been waiting too long to hear someone say, words so dear
"Hear Come Thy Tears", just "Before Thy Dawn"
Ye art just A Hint Of Hope, which keeps thee believing

That love can be real in more than just a dream
That love is wanted even though it won’t be had
But in your voice thy distance comes alive and reminds thee
I be still alone today, hearing in thy silence a whisper of goodbye
But hathing thy Hint Of Hope that somewhere in your heart
Ye would want thee to stay

A Hint Of Hope. Copyright © 2006 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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A True Heart

A river flows down thy tracks of forgotten years
His Mistress feels lost and alone
She walks along a hidden path
Only to find herself back at thy end of night
A gentle breeze reminds her of a touch she never felt,
And warmth upon his lips she never kissed.
She feels his arms about her body yet all strength is gone
As thy river streams before her, so too do her memories
Thunder and lighting fill thy night sky as doeth her heart from thy pain
Alone she always welcomes thy openness of time
Longing to be in another realm of life
A place where love is real and dreams come true
Where hope is more then just a word and time hath no passing
Where a simple look in ones eyes means thy world to thee person caressing that stare
This Mistress, though alone, still believes her love is blowing through thy breeze

Is there not a Lord, whom would dare to capture A True Heart
Who would wish to be loved with truth
With a will to go on no matter what lies in store for thee
Thine arms are open wide and waiting for ye
Thy heart is heavy but true
Dream with thy Lady on this night
For this Mistress will love blindly, faithfully,
And with A True Heart

A True Heart. Copyright © 2007 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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Amongst The Shadows

Staring into thy darkness
Seeing visions of tomorrows
Thy hopes and thee dreams
Scattered through thy rain
Showering thy world with its sorrows
We hath but one heart

Reaching into thy shadows
Never knowing where to go
Blinded by lies, tries, and love
Fearing in thy worst
Trusting in thee best
Praying for a new start

Without love, there is no pain
Without tears, we will regain
What thy darkness hides
What a heart decides
But where thee shadows lead us
May keep us from falling apart

Amongst thy shadows
We stand alone
Learning from our mistakes
Continuing to reach for someone
Stepping away from thy darkness
Love shall always be a work of art

Amongst The Shadows. Copyright © 2007 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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Fade To Black

Be it said and done, deleted and erased
Gone from shadow, forsaken by disgrace
Forgotten thee wish to be from shadow
A beastly haunting tares away a bond
Releasing thy birth of a silence so hollow

No reasons given, for he cares not, enabling tears
Forgotten hope, resented faith, gathered fears
A light grows dim and dies
Feelings fade as light turns to darkness
His voice be screamed yet he heard not her cries

Another’s arms consuls thee now
Hath erased all pain created from thou
Hath given a promise on this he doeth not lack
No more to remember another’s horrid past
New love embraces what hath

"Fade To Black"

Fade To Black. Copyright © 2007 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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If I Gave Up

If I put aside thy past seven years
Would thee loneliness go away?
If I stopped remembering thee past
Would I forget thee good times I see?
If time moved quicker
Would I remember ye?

If there was no such thing as pain
Would love still hurt so bad?
If tears weren’t shed
How would we express our love?
If thee stars fell from thy heavens
Would we still look above?

If dreams weren’t dreamt
Would reality be real?
If music had no sound
What would we hath to say?
If I gave up on ye
Would I still feel thee same way?

If poems made no sense
Would people still write them?
Would their meanings be hopeless,
Out of context and rhyme
Would we read between thee lines,
Submitting to a certain time

All ye hath read from thee hath meaning
All that I hath tried to tell ye I hath poured from mine heart
If ye missed a line or two it would matter
Because between thy lines lies a tear or two
And all that ye hathe just read would happen

If I gave up on ye

If I Gave Up On You. Copyright © 2007 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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Just Once

Just Once
I wish I could feel ye arms around thee, thee grasp of ye hand in thine
Just Once
I wish I could hear thy beating of ye heart telling thee that ye love me
Just Once
I wish I could look into ye eyes and truly know that love is real
Just Once
I wish ye would open up and say how ye truly feel
Just Once
I wish happiness would lead us to our destinies and over come our fears
Just Once
I wish thy distance between us was but a step away and drown out our tears
Just Once
I wish ye and I were more than friends
Just Once
I wish thy loneliness would end
Just Once
I wish ye would smile and tell thee it will be alright
Just Once
I wish to know if mine love for ye is worth thy fight
Just Once
I wish ye would see what ye mean to thee
Just Once
I wish thy pain in ye heart would send ye free

But Alas

I shall never hold ye close
I shall never know what it is to love ye
I shall never hear thy beating of ye heart or feel thy warmth of ye lips upon thine forehead
Thy distance shall always keep us apart
But to dream is to live with ye in thine life
So with thine eyes wide open I step away from reality and into a world where ye and I will always be one

Just Once
Forever will last in a dream
Love will prevail
Just Once

Just Once. Copyright © 2006 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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Just Words

She is always reaching for what doeth not reach back
Always keeping hope in her heart
Keeping a hint of thy past buried inside her
Only to protect her heart in thee future
Love should never be thy burden that time makes it to be
It should be given freely and willingly and with out doubt
She loves a man who fears thy worst as she does herself
Given thy distance that would keep them apart
She still effortlessly reaches for him

She prays that time would prove him wrong
That her love would prevail and conquer
He brings to her tears of hope knowing his heart doeth not feel as hers does
Dreaming she does often to keep him with her
Feeling as if he was there beside her always
Helping her heart to be strong
But in all reality her heart cries to be loved by him and him alone
Wanting to give him thy world should it hath been hers to give

Still reaching as she writes her heart on paper
Tears caress her hope
He is there in thy distance trying to appease thy pain with laughter
Trying to let her know something, anything to take away her tears
To calm her fears
Maybe to let her know that somewhere deep inside him
He is reaching for what is reaching for him

Just Words. Copyright © 2007 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes


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What I Need From You

What I need from you
Doesn’t show in words
Isn’t felt by the touch of your hand
What I need to know
You can’t show me with a smile
I hope you can understand

It’s not the serenade of song
Or the poetry from a single rose
It doesn’t come from the dreams you share
It’s not the beating of your heart
Or love letters written in the sand
It’s not the little things that show you care

What I need from you
What I hold as true
You can’t whisper with I love you
I want forever to come through
In your eyes is the proof
Deep within the deepest part of you

Now that you know
It’s not what you show
It’s what I see in your eyes
If your heart is true
What I need from you
Your eyes will tell the truth from the lies

So be it as it may
With nothing more left to say
Hold me close to your heart
Look into my eyes
If we’re to be apart
What I need from you
Love will show through your disguise

What I Need From You. Copyright © 2007 by Thy Lady Coltessa Raynes